Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take. (Proverbs 3:5-6)
As I was writing my prayers this morning, I came to this verse and it really spoke to me and the ways God has worked in my life recently. God’s plans are so much better than ours and I thought I should share how his plans were far better than my own.
Like many affected by this pandemic, my hours at work were cut….all the way down to 0. Due to the fact that I’m a per diem employee at my job and my hours aren’t guaranteed. I also don’t receive any benefits like PTO so my only source of income was gone.
I received an opportunity to work in New Orleans to help with Covid. I wasn’t 100% in favor of going but I needed to provide for my family. I signed a contract, headed to New Orleans, and went to work. I did my full day of orientation and training. When I got to the hotel later that evening, I received a call that my contract was canceled along with 4 others. I was devastated. I had driven 6 hours, left my home and family for this opportunity and I was back at square one.
I gave myself a moment to cry, then I remembered that whatever God has for me, will be for me and I have to trust in Him – so I did just that. I prayed and finally accepted that I had to let His will be done. I checked out of the hotel and drove back home the next morning.
So I returned home, back to job searching. I called agencies everyday trying to find assignments for jobs that would suit me. I’d spend hours doing applications, checklists, and sending documents everyday for three weeks. Then I stopped. I stopped calling and thought, maybe God has given me this time at home for a reason. And what was I doing with that time? I spent more time with my family, I was able to work on my relationship with God and to take care of myself. I have always worked so much. It had been over a year since I took time off and here was my opportunity to rest. So I rested.
It is useless for you to work so hard from early morning until late at night, anxiously working for food to eat; for God gives rest to his loved ones. (Psalms 127:2)
Then last week as I was cooking breakfast I received a call for the job that I wanted the most and, honestly, had given up on. On what would’ve been the last day of my contract in New Orleans, I got on a plane and flew to Connecticut to help those affected by Covid. The company and position have more benefits than the prior and my time here has been so rewarding thus far. I feel so honored to be on the frontlines doing what God has blessed me with the ability to do. I pray everyday that God uses me to extend His healing power and I’m so thankful for this opportunity to provide for my family and grow closer to Him.
Now this is just one of the many times that God has worked in my life. I just think it’s so amazing how things worked out. How I was so let down when things didn’t go the initial way I planned and yet, His plans were far better. As much as we want to be in control, God always is. When we learn to surrender to that, God will never fail us.
We can make our plans, but the Lord determines our steps. (Proverbs 16:9)